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| So life has gotten better and worse at the same time. It always happens like that. OKAY
I have been having problems with my gf. We have gotten over it but im still not completly happy. I cannot explain why or what people can do but im just lonely and with someone at the same time. I dont know what to do, just a couple of days ago we were going to go on a break, and now we are back to getting into it and im seriously wanting not to have a gf. I do like her and stuff, or i wouldnt be with her, but it is just the fact that our lives are SO incredibly busy that we dont get time to see eachother. Plus I have the Fraternity and that takes up a lot of time. There is just not enough time for me anymore. I stretch myself SO far out, that i just wanna break. I dont know... PEACE | | |
| So... Im so fucking retarded. I messed up the best thing that was going for me. I liked this girl and she liked me...But i have a lot of stuff going on. So italked to her and she was like its okay ill wait and we can just be friends. So i dont talk to her for a while cause i have a lot of stuff going on. then the next thing i know she has this bf and i didnt know. then when i find out im mad cause i still liked her. I talk to her and she said that i never called, and never wanted to hang out with her and stuff. Then i talked to her the next day and her and her bf broke up. So i thought great im back in the picture. Well again with my busyness and again she has a bf. Well actualy yesterday i found out she did. At the beginning of the day I woke up thinking "im going to ask this girl out"... Just to make sure i didnt forget, i wore this hat that she gave me all day. I had people ask me why i was wearing it and i told them and they said that was sweet and they wish a guy would do that for them and stuff. Then i have a softball game and we are losing and she isnt there. so i call her and ask her to come cause it would hepl our team out with fans. So she shows up and im looking at her and she was tlaking on the phone with her hand over her mouth. She then after the game asked me what was wrong. I told her that i thought something was wrong with her and I found out that she had a bf. So i left and drove about 100 mph to get away from her so i could think. I went back to school and got a call from my friend Chris asking me to go to a resturant called Buffalo Wild Wings. Well I call her and see where she is so i can give her, her hat back. So i go give her the hat and she asked me what i thought. I told her that i still liked her and stuff but i guess it doesnt matter. She is taken by some guy who is in the service. He doesnt even live in the same state. So he is going to be moving here for her and I am completly out of the picture. She doesnt understand that i like her. but it doesnt matter. I told her that i liked her and she said she would wait and that she liked not having a bf and she liked not being tyed down, BUT she hurries to jump into a relationship. I talked to my friend Hannah this morning til about 445 am. I told her everything that has happened. She said that i could either wait or move on. I want to wait but i dont know what to do. If you have any suggestions...Please write me and tell me what you think!
PEACE
Shawn | | |
| SO if my first year away to college couldnt have gotten any better... My summer baseball coach for American National died. His name was Jim Medlock. He never really liked me but we got along in front of people. Hope everyone else is having fun when they are at college. Please keep your heads up and remember that everything happens for a reason. PEACE Shawn | | |
| Hey.... More great news! Well i went to the Funeral September 2, 2005. I was there early and sitting there by myself thinking, WHAT COULD I HAVE DONE??? You ever ask yourself that? Well i left cause i couldnt stand sitting there crying my eyes out! Then when people were there that i knew i went back in... So we sat there waiting for more people to show. then when they brought Steve down the aisle i completly lost it again. Then i had to watch my friends look at me and cry and i couldnt do anything. Then when were driving to the funeral i lost it. And lost it , and lost it, and lost it!!! I miss all my friends. I saw Graeme, Jennie, Amber, Stephani, Heather, and Melissa. I hate it that we cannot stay in contact. All my friends here at LU will probably lose track of eachother this summer. It is going to happen i know it!! Well i will add more later when i can think more and write more. PEACE Shawn | | |
| So more bad news.... My friend Steve Solomon died in a car accident on Monday. His step-brother Mike goes here to LU. Along with this girl named Molly. Molly and I were talking for a while i guess, then she told me that Mike was Steve's step-bro. The next day (i shit you not) Molly called me and said that Steve was killed in a horrific car accident. He died on the scene. It is really shitty that you could have done more. But then what could i have done?? The wake is today from 3-8. Im going home and then going there. The funeral is tomorrow at 9. Im going to sing with Molly and some other people at the funeral. Hopefully Mike will be there. we havent been able to get a hold of him. I know what it is like, My cousin at 19 died of hypothermia. He was drinking and tried swimming Labor day weekend at some lake. The water was SO cold it only took 10 mins of swimming and he died. He was swimming away from the boat and couldnt make it back. New News about my mom.... She didnt have surgery to take the spots out of her ovary or tail bone. She has so many small spots that it wouldnt help. SO they are doing Chemo and radiation to stop the growth and maybe kill the smaller ones they cannot pick up. SO talk to you later... SHAWN | | |
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